You surround my heart

Looked for Bf last night, for that moment i felt so werid .
i remained silence pretending nothing happen, act as usual.
Heart to heart talk with him .. his eyes were red & followed by tears.
I have never see him in this state before.
Heavyhearted & letting my teardrop fall.
Indeed felt so sorrie about the harsh words that i said whenever we quarrelled.
Had no idea why, i prefer to be straight instead of putting it in a nice sentences ..
so i just spilled out my anger but definitely didnt mean it at all.

i do cherish the relationship .. & i do wish we can overcome every obstacles together.
But not giving this relationship up easily ..
that is why i wouldnt allow this to end in such way.
After everything, i learnt to love him more ..

Supposedly, should attend wee leong's bdae today. Since all agreed not to go so we just ignored it ..
Felt so bad but no choice. Im all alone if i go.
This doesnt make me the only baddie .. hehe'
Went over to his house instead. Eat pizza hut afterwhich ..
thought of going to that tower where we used to slack last time.
so much memories over there ..
& YESSSS, he brought me there :D
Told a lie to him last night, saying i've already threw all sushi away to vent my angry.
& dumbass, he really believed ..
he's rather surprised to see it in my bag.
But sad laa, it is inedible cause rice is too hard .. mayb left in fridge for a day or too less water for the rice?
Anyway, he still took few bites.
& said nvm, effort is there then gave me the usual peck on forehead. Hahaha
Cannot blame, first time doing this ..
somemore that is a sudden idea that i can come out with for our 19 months.
Reached home ard 12 plus.

Tell me, how is life gonna be without you?