You surround my heart

Haiskk ~ im soo bored! =(

Wishing bf is here with me .. but only fri then i will get to see him as he book out . Miss him badly suddenly .. Recalled something he told me few days ago. & i can foresee sumthing may happen after he ORD in Sept. He told me he will find a job & retaking his O's at the same time . But by the time arrive, he will be too busy to even bother abt me. =( i know .. i have even try to hide & pretend nth happen to prevent myself from thinking too much . Just wanna to maintain this relationship of ours .. but can we? wanted him to do well too. I am afraid i'm the one who couldnt hold on if he pay less attention to me .. the probs we have earlier on will reoccur. This is what concern me most ..

Well, i'm too get used to him like he does too. Still, it's hard to say sometimes .. i still love him as much as before. So shall not worry soo much at the moment first! ((: Because of him, i try to talk to guys as less as possible, hang out with them & all. all this, to regain the trust back. As he onces mention that he feels no security in me, that having many guy friends surround me. Hopefully he did realize that im doing my best ..